Back from London | gothgrrrl's Blog

Sooo, I'm back from London. It was SO exhausting. We started the drive on Friday at 19:30 and I didn't sleep the whole night. I started to feel very sick on the ferry about twenty minutes before Dover and got totally pale and almost broke down. The day in London was okay then. I was panicky yes, but it wasn't that bad. I ate something, not enough, but at least something, I felt sick a lot, but I was still able to feel happy because of this great city.

It was a bit hard with my girlfriend cause I was not feeling that great and in that condition I wasn't able to force myself to act like I was happy and loving. I just wasn't. And she didn't really understand and so we're now both feeling bad.

I slept the whole day. I drank a strange coffee at McDonald's this morning at 6 am when I came back to Germany and I still feel it in my stomach cause it made me feel sick. So now I'm still feeling pretty sick...

I kept having dreams about the cute waiter I wrote about in the last entry. Of coures the problem is now that I'm having some problems with my girlfriend I keep thinking about other people... It's horrible, but the stress just won't go away... I'm so full of doubt at the moment...