New Year's Eve | gothgrrrl's Blog

I'm feeling very depressed right now because of this fucking New Year's Eve. Last year I was in a relationship and I sort of had to spend it with my boyfriend and I did. But I HATE this urge to do something on New Year's Eve. My family wants me to do something, everyone thinks I'm weird if I don't meet people on New Year's Eve, if I don't celebrate.

Still I've got that sickness and I don't WANT to spend an evening with so many people, I just can't. And now I'm even getting scared that no one's gonna ask me to spend New Year's Eve with them because my circle of friend's is so split up right now... I'd like to just sit in some kind of bar and drink and talk to strangers but I can't cause in this fucking village there's nothing like that.

God, is it really depressing to be alone on New Year's Eve? And if it isn't (which I think) then why am I so depressed about it?! We should have some kind of New Years Eve party here for everyone who's alone...